|July 27, 2014|
You are such an inspiration to me, and I can never sufficiently express my gratitude for all of the ways you have loved and cared for me, especially since I have come out as trans.
I am excited to share that after much discernment, prayer, and the required therapist letters, I am continuing my transition from female to male. Yesterday, on July 30th, I took my first testosterone shot. On August 19th, I will be in Fort Lauderdale for top surgery to remove my breasts and give me a male chest.
Some of you will celebrate this news. Thank you! Some of you may struggle with it, and I totally understand. I only ask that you still see me for the lovable goofball I have always been. I am giddy and grateful, and trying not to be too anxious about negative responses from those I care about.
It isn’t easy for me to defy expectations or risk upsetting people. My biggest fear in this process has been how people will respond. I’m a people pleaser. I want to be liked, and I hate conflict. But I will risk the hard conversations and negative comments so that I can live more fully as myself. This is an experience that is giving me strength and courage to find my own voice. I do not undertake this lightly, and if you are not supportive, please consider how your words may wound me or harm our relationship.
I am so excited to continue this journey and curious to see how I will look and sound in a year. Have questions? Some places to check out: HRC Transgender FAQ, and Hudson’s FTM Testosterone basics, or ask me.
I wanted to record my voice at intervals for comparison, so I googled “lion quotes” and found this lovely one by Elizabeth Kenny:
It’s better to be a lion for a day than a sheep all your life.
Good words to live by, I think.